Asslamualaikum.

I'm here again to tell a story.

Every movie had a sad scene right?

hehe it's not that sad any way. it's haenbokhae (happiness)

this feel is so mixture!

I had to tell you about one of my memorial day

in the night of 25-4-2012

it was my 14th birthday! and it was the most memoriable birthday :)

i never been that happy before.

It was in Hira' Jeram. the night before my birthday,i was crying while i don't know whats the reason! then i started to think that tomorrow is my birthday and ofcorse worried bcs of getting old! (im weird pls dont hate me) and actually tht time when i was 'prep malam' 

wait, i don't really rember this time.

but theres a time, during prep,i was crying again. i feel sad because of someone. because of junior. the one junior who i only get close to. i was worried if i make her felt uncomfort!

she was crying. i asked he why. but she didn't respond me even leaves me behind.

i know,it was family matters. she seemed sooooo deep! i really want to comfort her... at that time i was wondering,like why these sad was on my birthday?!

i cried.really hard (lmao)

until she sent a letter to me, lol im so sorry i cant really remember the contens, but it seemed like :

"Kak ain,don't worry, it is not your fault. i really can't tell u what was it. its a family matter.

don't worry!

i feel so bad for making your birthday getting worst"

yes,tht letter really healed me. but later, i cried. because i feel worst for her! i wish i could hug her,but too bad.

but THEN,

theres someone ask me to accompany her to go to the toilet. ok then,i while i was about to go down stairs,i could see  from up stairs there are some girls are about to went upstairs with cake complete with candles! hahaha as i expected but at that time i'm hiding but demn busted! hahaha

it was my first time having such a birthday like that.

even it was just like that,i really appreciate it ^^ thanks guys.

and the one who was planning it.

shes known as zombie. (i really don't want to mention u)

dear zombie,i was so thankful to Allah because He granted me a friend like you! even your heart are colder than ice,but i still love you. u should REAALLY KNOW THAT.

We used to be close right?

but im sure you're forgetting me. i know. maybe because i hurt ur heart while i don't even notice tht? i am sorry? would u even forgive my wrong doings? i can only see your happy face through instagram. i was tried to be close to you like ever. i miss u.

you are the one who brights my birthday. 

 till now i think i'm having a worst birthday.

i really want u to know that u're appreciated.

please dont even try to kill yourself!

i saw your tweet,i seemed like you're having a hard day.

Dari Anas bin Malik berkata Rasulullah bersabda,"Janganlah ada orang yg menginginkan mati kerana kesusahan yang dideritanya.Apabila harus dilalukannya hendaklah dia cukup berkata, "Ya Allah tetapkan hidupkan aku selama kehidupan itu baik bagiku dan wafatkanlah aku jika kematian baik untuk ku". HR Bukhari.

i saw your tweet are such a thing like im nothing,im not appreciated,unseful,everyone hates me.

HEY! i feel sad when u talk like that!

i replied ur tweet.

but.

i don't even care if you forgot me,just. please remember,tht theres someone who appreciate you pretty much. 

how im gonna make u to make sure that?!

and today,i'm so happy cs i got your respond!! haha

i was so happy bcs i get a chance to talk to you <3

please take a good care of yourself!